~....swt dreamz of made of these...~

2003-10-02T22:04:00.000+08:00

-life-

e sun sets and e stars rise..
as i lk into ur eyes...
time stood still as i cld feel..
my broken heart start to heal...
bcoz of u, a love so strong..
i knew nth cld go wrong...
wit just a drop of this life u give...
i know that i'll live..
live to think abt u for just one more moment...
witout u i cant bear e torment.....
0609

-glue-

drenched in darkness..
as i walk wit e shadows 2nite...
dashin past roads covered in msytery n questions...
left in my own colourless cornered world...
movin thru this gust of rules tt pull me back..
back to all my mistakes n blunders...
longin for the beacon of lite...
tryin to shake off e slime of e shadows...
but e past keeps pullin me back..
back to memories of my biggest fault...
leavin my spark, my beacon of life...
u..........
0609

-where-

as tt dae comes close i hear more singing...
more ppl jumpin for joy, more rejoicing...
but i'm just stuck in a shell of questions..
e shell's too hard fer me to break out my desicions...
thinkin n tihnkin all dae thru...
wonderin whether it's her or u...
to these questions, e answers i have no clue...
like sum1 locked up all e answers n threw away e key...
just to keep it away frm me...
like it's locked up deep inside my mind...
sumwhere i cant find...
lkin thru myself iz like tryin to stop time...
u cant do it.. but everytime u are running nxt to it... it just moves too fast forward...
if onli i cld just get e answers..
if onli my life wasn't full of stanzas...
full of meaningless words tt explains my daez...
but when their not written abt u, what words can they say...
when i'm caught in this enigma there's nth i can do..
just hopin tt e truth iz i'm in luv wit u....
0609

-quicksand-

lkin thru e jungle of this world...
everytin seems to lk so normal..
i take my slow stroll on this bitter swt road, which end i have no sight...
then i see a tree full of angelic delites...
it sends warm jingles to my heart...
as i get closer, i see a margin where e land parts...
shld i jump ova to be able to taste this pure and perfect fruit of e vine...
or shld i think twice abt makin it mine...
then as e dae starts to turn so dark..
i lite a spark.....
i've made up my mind...
i'm gonna jump of this cliff and try to make it mine...
but just as i'm abt to jump...
i turn and into another tree i bump..
wit this tree there was no trouble...
fruit rollin down like marbles...
though e fruits not as ravishin as e other...
lkin carefully, not sure if i feel e same stir..
but then e grnd beneath me starts to give way..
my legs gettin pulled down i just cant stay...
e more i move e faster i sink..
rite to e point my head's at e brink...
both branches are near...
but which do i reallie hold dear..
i mite not get fruits frm one though e fruits lk so good...
but e other wld give me so much food....
i'm sinkin so fast..
i dont think i'll last..
what i shld do.. i dotn know...
i wish time wld jsut move so slow.....................
0609

-dream come true-

imagine a heart, full of love...
imagine an angel frm above...
imagine an angel who shows me love..
imagine an angel as pure as a dove...
one who cares for me when i'm down..
neva fails to pull up my frown..
who brings me back to memories i thot were buried deep..
memories so happy tt i get emotional n weep..
well i dont need to imagine tt anymore..
coz ur e angel i adore..
ur e one tt fills my heart wit love..
tt keeps me warm like i'm in a lil cove..
u inject me wit laughter and take away my distress..
though sumtimes skies appear grey u clear up e mess...
and of course u bring me memories too..
most important deep in my heart.. were e memories of u...
~i luv u~
0609

-mystery gal-

there she iz sun shinin on her most angelic black hair...
in e huge fields though miniscule to e vast stretches of grass, she stands out..
i watch her frm afar as she lays on e soft green grass..
lkin at her every movement... time flies by so fast....
just watchin how she swings her hair back..
makes me wonder what a mystery this beauty iz...
then dae turns to nite..
she glows as e rays of e sun wither down...
she lites up her surroundin...
makin e cold yet troubled nite seem so warm and cozy...
she lks absolutely seraphic..
she takes e slow walk back to her home by e fields of grass...
and as she walks.. she doesn't seem to step on a single grass...
as if.. they part just fer her.. guidin her home safely..
as she closes e door eva so silently...
it seems like there's this sudden silence...
e wild iz quiet....
nature turns so... uncomfortable..
everytin seems to just wait.. fer e mornin..
not so e sun shines.. but.. just so she comes out n warms e world..
and e next dae it just repeats..
but though it happens all e same..
she just makes me wonder again...
she's like a truffle..
revealin new mysteries n unravelin old ones..
she's the one who shines lite on me..
more lite then e sun cld eva shine...
0609

-problems solved, friends evolve-

wonderin abt life's decisions n problems...
if i had a wish i cld reallie do witout em...
engulfed in my thots, of this world and e sins...
walkin arnd i see e dangers,i curl up, hearin all e din...
no matter how much i give i still dont have a clue..
afta a while i get tired... too tired to pull thru...
i betcha thinkin now this iz kinda sad...
it must be reallie bad...
but lucky me this poem's gonna change,coz i've change ma point of view...
n u probably seen it comin.. coz my life's changed cozza u..
u shine lite on my dae..
when it's turnin to grey..
u pull me outta trouble..
when sumtin's bouta burst my bubble..
if i eva piss u off i'm sorry...
i probably didn't mean to do it, i'm blur haha so dont worrie..
plz dont stay angry at me fer too long..
coz i'll dread e time ur gone...
neva doubt tt i'm ur friend..
i'll stick wit u thru thick n thin..
push up ur chin..
neva let u lk down n feel sad within..
i'll cheer u up..
make u laugh non-stop...
n e onlie time i'll eva make u cry..
iz probably coz i'll make u laugh so hard tt's why..
so lk arnd u it's a brite new way...
if eva u lk up and e sky iz grey...
sorry baby but dont worrie.. i'll briten up ur dae...
0609

-lovin u-

thinkin bout u nite n dae..
noone gets more of my attention than u baby..
thinkin about u my heart just melts..
u dont know what i felt..
i wanna tell u how much i love u..
how much i care and spare my time 4 u...
but there's like this invisible wall..
but then again maybe it's just bcoz i get nervous n stall..
neva gotta tell u how u rock my world..
fergot ta tell u bout e part tt i'm in love wit u girl..
everydae wishin n prayin fer e courage to show..
show u how i feel about ur beautiful glow..
how i feel about ur smooth and silky hair..
how it gets me in my heart, yes rite there..
sumtimes i reallie wonder if u know i'm here...
my heart iz reserved just fer u alwaez my dear..
i'm sad when ur sad..
feel bad when ur mad..
just to make myself completely clear...
girl i'll alwaez be there wit a listenin ear..
and lastly girl.. tear when u tear....
0609

-guide-

i see u against life's races..
followin all e paces..
helpin out all e faces..
linkin up all e traces..
mendin broken hearts iz what u do..
how much u make ppl feel u dont have a clue..
how much u make me feel?, ur e one in my mind alwaez tt's who..
i think i'm fallin in love wit u too..
but thru those covers of angelic skin..
and those bandaids u put on ppl within..
i see e sorrow in ur eyes..
but u alwaez hide it.. no matter e size..
i try to help u.. but only to here u say..
"i'm feelin alrite.., doin ok"
i reallie admire ur spirit..
the amount of energy u give it..
when sum1 iz in need, though others run timid..
u stand there valiant helpin them to cope wit it..
i wish i cld do e same as u do..
helpin ppl frm breakin in two..
but then again i'd rather be..
i'd rather u be nxt to me..
thru this life together we'll stand..
i'll love u 4eva hand in hand..
two hearts to one..
e battle of love won..
holdin u tite..
our love will soar as high as a kite..
but e only thing iz..
no strings attached tt's how we'll live...
0609

-my truffle-

beautiful being in my sight..
to see u is my indulgence in sin and i blight...
you shine herculean with e purity of white...
lightin my loneliness thru enite...
i see thru your hidden agenda..
feelin thru this propaganda...
i know in my heart tt your and angel in disguise...
under tt radiant skin tt u advertise...
i see thru these covers,normal eyes wld'nt see..
only eyes of e one tt have been touched by your inna beauty..
neither words nor actions can explain what u do..
despite this mysterious haze around u, alwaez touchin my heart is what u do..
your e one tt shines in my eyes..
e one ur beauty cant disguise..
0609

-desperate fer ur love-

been a long time..
since i've came up wit a rhyme..
it's been almost 4eva..
since i've been in this endevour..
losin e touch...
missin u much..
used to think u were covered in lies..
now i see e truth in ur eyes..
frm this moment on i know my heart only feels fer u..
frm this moment i'll love u without a due..
e sorrow i've gone thru..
e broken heart mended by u..
wantin ur love inside out..
waitin too long i feel like a lout..
but neva have i doubt ur love wld show..
show as e breeze tt's passes thru me as i give e all go..
then in takes me frm within..
hopin to help wit e strengthinin...
tinting my heart frm black to red..
frm my toes strait to mi head..
though i mite be a fickle at times..
i'll stay by u readin u rhymes...
those tt will change and polish our love..
feelin so smooth like silk gloves..
so i ask u honestly with all my black black heart..
gimme a chance.. let's make a start..
we'll stay together 4eva neva apart..
i'll love u alwaez no matter what..(mwaH~)
0609

-u n u alone--heal my broken bones-

tt feeling in the frigid nite..
lkin at me a contrite site..
feeling nauseated.. by the day'z troubles..
like sum1 came n burst my bubble...
my life just got turn down.. reduced to rubble..
incapacitated just stuck in a puddle...
the puddle of all my griefs n painz...
my ego n pride, all recklessly stained..
stuck to e grnd, cant soar coz of these chains..
cant soar to e height of happiness, just being retained..
but then again.. i have u in my life...
why do i cling on to all this strife...?
i turn ova.. to follow u..
i know i can trust u n follow u thru....
i know u'll lead me n show me the way..
the way to luv to briten all my daez..
learnin to luv.. iz such a great feelin..
luvin u i feel like i can soar past e ceiling...
holdin ur hands made of heavenly skin..
feelin e fire burn frm within....
coz ur love lites up e gloomy nites...
to myself, starin at u.. i think... what a beautiful site...
0609

-electropositivity unvealed-

i remember tt nite...
it was love at first site..
the moon was shadowy brite..
the beautiful stars all up at tt height..
the sky so deep n blue...
the wind swept me off witout due..
all this happened bcoz of u......
---(add on)---
eyes, the perceptivity tt i have wit me..
dust of daily deceit n confusion stops me n blinds me..
but u, u baby reveal the world to me..
0609

-sicknesses dealt, love felt-

spent half my dae in bed..
with tt violent pain in my head..
but as i lay down, i thought of u...
the one who's eva so genuine tt's who...
the one who remained eva so true...
when all e others left me when i was blue..
then tt pain quickly faded...
thinkin of u my life's no more jaded...
a friend who will stand...
stand by me to e terminal end...
even when i fell in e fire u held my hand..
pulled me up, together e evil we fend....
even if seperate ways we may wend..
our friendship we'll pull together, we'll mend...
we'll pull through all e troubles of life..
get thru any form of strife....
coz i know ur my angel frm which god sent...
to me ur words are infallible, repairin all e dents...
frm all e way down here u lk so angelic, seraphic and swt..
i can feel e intimacy frm your heat....
i can feel the aura of love tt surrounds...
in u e love of my life i've found...
n i wish to dedicate the stars to u..
the moon and the mistyfyin skies to u..
i hope u'll stay wit me till e end of time..
my love, i hope u'll alwaez be mine....
0609

2003-09-30T20:06:00.000+08:00

-lost and fergotten love-

the green grass, the fresh air
love looks to be everywhere
holes in my heart
the feelin when we've gone apart
E leaks so severe, nth can patch
the love leavin so fast, i just can't catch
it was just there, the love tt used to be
so soft and cuddly, but now nth but history
i wish u were still in my life
the pain in my heart stabbing like a knife
now..e train departs, the lonely nite still lasts
u can feel the shivery breeze go past, as e cruel spell has been cast
e spell tt soaked up all e love
e one tt took away the angel frm above (you)
u know sumtimes i wish my life i cld live
i wish fer u whom my love to give
i hope u'll be the star in my sea..
together free, 4eva we'll be...
0609

-uninvincible sadness-

i'm totally in love wit u
from the way u move to everytin u do
i know there are a probably a thousand guys by ur side
probably no where u can hide
for e light tt shines frm u gives u away
outstandin throughout even e darkest daez
sumtimes i wonder how beautiful u are
nth can match ur gracefulness not even e brightest star
ur like a mantrap
every man's heart tt passes u snaps
fallen fer u just like tt
and it's like ur alwaez happie 9 lives frm sadness like a cat
sumtimes i need ta feel e solid ground
after lkin at u, a knockout, i feel like i've been turned round n round
and when ur sad it's like e skies are grey
and i know itz a sad dae
coz a star has fallen frm e sky
and i start to wonder y
sumtimes u mite start ta cry
tears start ta build up in my eyes
coz when sum1 so important in my life like u
feels pain i'm hurt too
0609

-blowin me mind, burnin me heart-

todae i thot about u when i woke up....
then suddenly e idea struck.....
y dont i ask u out....
but e endless ringing of ur phone not ur voice and i pout....
but tt's ok...
i go on wit my dae...
then half way thru e dae..
lunch time on e way...
i pick up my phone ta give u a call...
but again just e lonely ringin, like e echoes frm a wall....
i frown.....
feeling so down....
but i'm ok...
i'll make it thru e dae..
spendin my time alone......
solitary to e bone....
i'm wishin n hopin fer dinna ta come..
so hopefully i can get some...
another chance to call u hopin to get some time...
some time wit u hopin the answer wont make my heart sublime..
then here comes dinna.. nearin end of dae..
callin u hearin u just say......
"i'm sorry.... i'm not reallie free tonite..."
inside me , my heart does'nt feel rite...
i'm just sad, feelin like ur love i lack......
like i'm callin out but no reply just lonely black....
starin up in e black sky...
i wish upon a star and wonder why.....
i'm livin this dae... horrid without u....
hopin sumhow i'll get some clue...
then i know what i can put my hopes on, in spite..
in spite of all e bad daez, hopin tt tmr yet another dae i will get ta see ur eyes sparkle thru e nite...
tt will be the hope tt will keep my life runnin on..
the hope which will keep my love burnin fer u hun......
0609

-loose spirit-

time passes by..
hours by my eyes..
minutes thru me hands..
seconds tt i can't comprehend..
14yrs of my life iz done..
though i've had much fun..
when i think it thru...
i had most fun wit u..
when we were riding bikes..
when u use ta do my spikes..
when we talked on e phone..
tired and laid in each others arms like stone..
when we went ta town..
and we used ta play arnd..
when e nite came down..
and we had ta turn arnd wit a frown..
when we were at ur door...
e kisses u used ta give b4..
when problems used ta arise..
no matter what e size..
when u were by my side..
all e times we cried..
all e movies we eyed..
when u were petrified..
and all e nitez i wld lk into ur eyes..
ur silky hair.. and e dye...
i wish rite now as i cry...
and as i sit here.. 14yrs of my life so fast, i wonder y..
even just ta spend one more second wit u..
my life wld have sum hue......
0609

-endless friends-

loneliness and sadness in this world...
when ur not here or near me girl....
miss u so much it hurts inside....
inside my heart too many times i cried...
soon i'm gonna go ta bed..
wit just e thot of u in my bed..
then as i pray, i pray fer u.....
tt u may stay safe and away frm danger too...
i pray tt u had a good dae..
i pray tt u have gone e rite way..
i pray tt u wld be my friend...
thru dark times and fun times and rite thru e end...
then i think thru e times we had....
all i see iz gd nth bad...
all e fun neva sad...
to me u were neva a fad...
i wish i cld keep u as a friend...
and i know ur e angel tt god had sent--
0609

-stuck back like glue--broken in two-

sumtimes i wish upon a star
sumwhere near or sumwhere far
tt i could find another like you
the one who sticks to me like glue
the one who asks me how i feel
the one who fills my dae wit zeal
and hope tt noone cld eva steal
what a once in a life time deal
but when ur far and the distance is too much
too far tt i can't overcome and not feel your touch
my heart just sinks my tears just fall
i'm sittin at the corner waitin for your call
the walls seem to close in as the days pass me by
i'm just sittin there wonderin why
how it happened just b4 my eyes
i lost a diamond the most beautiful thing in my life
now all i feel is hardship and strife
now i can't sit i'm just lying down on my bed
i can't think too much with tt pain in my head
tt aching migraine just puts me into a state
a state i just can't take it anymore and i start to hate
i start to hate myself for the mistake
the mistake of my lifetime which caused the break
the break in my heart
the pain like a dart
the trauma justs begins to start
i'm ova there all on my own
the feeling of hurt rite to e bone
how i just harden like a stone
and lay solitary as i've done tremendous wrong
the wrong that i can neva forgive
myself as i just breathe not live
for what is life witout ur love
the fire of my life is blown off frm e chilly wind above...
0609

-burnin flames of love-

my body begins ta tremble
the world around me starts to crumble
N as e darkness overcomes e land
there u are beside me ta hold my hand
then suddenly the grey skies -blue
my world comes together bcoz of u
my body stops shaking and there's this fire
the fire tt burns from desire
the desire of ur love in my heart
hopin we will neva part
as our love goes off e charts
u'll know how much i've loved u frm e start
0609

-everyday angel, seduction thru my veins-

wonder and awe,
as u walk thru e door.
stopped in my tracks,
holes in my heart become nth but covered cracks.
E fire of love tt burns within,
got a lil strengthenin.
E way u move, tt silky hair,
the way ur eyes gimme tt sexy stare.
and as u draw closer,
E beats of my heart pumps faster.
longin to feel the touch of ur hand,
ur lips i cant comprehend.
i wonder what a beautiful gal like u,
could be stuck on this ordinary world like glue...~
0609

-astray-

tadaez i felt like i've gone astray,
away from the correct and right way.
i felt like i've lost my way,no home,like a stray.
then as i lk thru e dae,
rite b4 my eyes it turns terribly grey,
and faced wit e truth i've gone dumb,nth ta say,
things start 2 look frightfully decayed.
in the midst of this i hear this swt voice,
and i 4get all e noise.
there u lk to me wit tt swt face,
u give me a warm hug to embrace.
and as i stand there in a daze,
seeing all the wonder and grace,
lkin at u, so beautiful, all i can do iz gaze.
then u move those swt lips to say..
my dearest friend i'm only a phone call away...~
0609
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